Does anybody realise how nerve-wrecking it can be to wait for a baby's arrival; especially if you're the Mom? Honestly, the longer I wait, the more nervous I really become.
I've been resting my sexy ass off for the last ten days and it has made me more paranoid and restless. Oh, the irony. The Braxton Hicks contractions are seriously not helping either, I'm going nuts about the pain. But because I'm a master of deluding myself away from pain, it helps that I'm not so panicky and the pain is bearable once I take it as a "mind over matter" thing. Should the real shit happens, oh my, that's another story altogether.
Tomorrow is 9 November 2012. In another month, my little one would be arriving. I have a month to physically and mentally prepare myself for what's to come. The pain, the joy, the everything. I'm definitely scared, scared the fuck out of my wits. Because this pain will be different, it won't be what I'd always had imagined in my mind, it will take me to a whole new level of discomfort and pain altogether. Which is why I'm scared.
Every movement my little F makes, every contractions my little tum makes, brings me closer to the end of this wonderful, torturous but definitely worth every moment, pregnant journey.
I'm really gonna miss the excitement each time me and Hubby go for his detailed scans, I still remembered how I teared listening to his heartbeat for the first time. I'm gonna miss the way he moves around in my tum, the kicks and punches and little responds when I talked or sang to him. I'm gonna miss the way he stubbornly pushes his way to the right side of my tum just because, and will not budge even if I tried to push him back to the middle. I'm really gonna miss all that.
But this is the last hurdle, the final lap. All of us are ready for you now, darling. Mummy and Daddy have been waiting so, so (im)patiently for you, my little prince. We really can't wait to see you!
On a side note, breastfeeding looks easy and simple, but I doubt it'd be so in my case. But for the sake of BIG BOOBIES, I'd do it. Haha!!!
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